dear diary, i know u like her. hahah it hurts actually. thinking that u could compliment her but not me. u could love her but not me. i wish i was loved. by u. i want to be treated like that girl that u are into rn. i dont want any relationships. i dont want any kissed from u.i dont want any hugs form u. i want nothing except yr attention. i want sparks between us. i want romance. i want us to be accidentally holding hands & u accidentally kissing my lips. & everything to be done accidentally but then i know that deep inside u, its obvious u are into me too. i'm sorry i am not pretty & sexy as other girls. i am not funny & awesome as u think i am. i am sorry that i get awkward with easily. i am just so sorry. but i'll change for u. don;t worry my puberty will come sooner or later. i'll be the prettiest girl u've ever seen. inshallah. i wish that butterflies in my tummy form u just wont get lost & i want it to happen over & over again when i'm with u. i want my face to blush everytime i am with u. i am willing to take any insults and criticism from anyone. i am willing to take the risk. u are all that i am thinking of. hm