should i die or not? i am so rude to a teacher. & do u know how guilty i am feeling right now. blame my genes fuckfuckyou genes. if u are like touchable, i would be killing u everytime & everyday when someone teases me. ergh. i am not insecure. i am just ugly. i am tired. i am like thinking. what if i don't get any guy by the age 30? haish. aku nye problems belambak tapi takde orng kesah. nobody gave me encouragemnt, hug me? say somthing sweet nobody! i feel so useless and worthless. is it because of my skin or face that they are treating me like this? tell me why must a selekeh girl get more attention & more admirers than me? i feel like killing myself. there is no point living. hahaha die nab die
fuck this genes ☹ i am so black & my parents just insulted me. i guess it'll be worse for what my friends are thinking ☹. i am so ugly. and furthermore, i have a crush. ergh. everyone already hates me i guess ☹. i am so tired & cikgu is so rasict. i feel sad okay. #nowplaying Should've Have Kissed You. hm. i'm bored & hurt. Allah, please lindungi me ^^ Amin. tak suka orang judge aku sebab aku hitam. & do you know what i'll do when i am really sad? i'll get really really hyper. then you know. when i'm nervous i have this thing that i talked to much sometimes i feel that i can't shut the hell up. its like i need to tell someone anyone who'd listen & thats when i'll start to forgot. yeah i'll forget about the consequences yeah for a minute that i'll lose my senses. or i'll just get really quiet. i need you know smthng to make me forget everything for awhile. hm i hate the fact that i am treated like a spare tire really. can you imagine if you were to fall for a girl just by her smile. i mean like i wish i was that kind of girl. i feel so low. my hopes are like under the earth ground y'know.