dammit sexy lips

hello ☺ i swear i am falling for this guy. haish i don't my heart broken again. i mean like it s so sudden. idk how but its the fact that i am starting to fall for him. not that i'm already in love with him but its just a crush ♥♥ i wish i could like dance with him one day. i just fucking wish he'll be my partner and ask me for a dance during prom. i want to dance with him and really get close with him. but whats with this suddenness? i really don't know. okay two guys at a time no way its good. wait why did i fall for the second guy? cause the first one wasn't worth it. he has already stopped chatting with me and he is just gone liddat. haish. okay so its not a real crush yet just that my heartbeats faster when he comes lol. idk why? i kept touching my heart when he was near me. urgh. suddenly i was into eye contacts with him. ergh why him? his lips really are so irresistible. hahah gila eh kau nab. but right.... he is like in love with someone else already. hmp ><. me & him aren't compatible at all! but still, i am still going to forgive my heart lol. ♥♥ ✌✌ feelings please don't get too much high hopes okay?
hi ☺ hm, not a good day for this while yet. & its like the start of February already! cepat nye! haish during vb awkward. i threw the ball and coach was like DONT THROW HIGH! and i was so embarrassed haish. then when meeting, i came to talk with mr mike & he fucking ignored me. haish. i feel so low haha. am i that ugly? hm. and mr wong only talked to khalisa & natasha & others except me. haish am i that black and ugly that no one notices me? and firas really. saying he cant see blanga really hurts me alot. okay so i got distracted with my problems by hanging out with friends. sumpah macam first asyraf hang out dgn kita like outside school. abeh asyiqin sumpah perangai pecah sia dia emo.. haish tak best sumpah tak best ☹☹. aku dah okay dgn dia. hehe ✌✌. i feel so sad when people tak layan aku and show me that they are  to see me. hm sedih sia hidup aku ☹