is showing off that bad? its like no one has ever seen somthing good abt me. everyone is judging me. im just sad its allah's creation they are judging here. why can't i stop getting insults from people? im just asking. i am too weak to cry already. why is life so difficult to endure? everyone's so cruel to me. its like as if i'm really a bad bad ass here. padahal aku cuma nak orang respect aku jer. i wan to be popular. have alot of friends. be pretty. really pretty girls get all the fame.

hi so aku ni maish ah sempat nak blog hahah xD haish i am acting so low on twitter. baru kene kacau-ed. i feel hurt. ayah cakap aku ni tak lawar. i feel hurt again. i hate the fact that my parents insult insult aku abeh pukul aku macam aku ni bahan pemukul. sakit tau. everytime aku nak plan somthing, mesti fail. asal? sebab aku nabilah. i dont want to go school tmr. im scared of being bullied. im so scared. seriously. hidup aku so fucked up. i'm just so. okay so tmr i am gg to mandi hadas besar and pray all day after school. why was i born ugly? aku tak paham asal orang kene cakap aku lawar ni semua abeh the next day cakap aku muka buruk. kau expect aku nak percaya siapa? i dont trust myself what about others? i am soo soo ugly. just fuck no. i want to be pretty and smart but then i realised i'm the fastest sperm and cant change anything. everyone's so perfect but me? i'm just a potato. aku jelaous ada kwan yang lawar handsome cute apa entah. yes its true. everyone group of friend, there is one the ugliest. and yes thats me. i'll get the most attention cause everyone would be like asal dekni sesat? hahah everyone would be coming to me and asking about my other friends yang cantik. abeh sendiri aku tak tanya? what if kalau aku sampai besar stay single forever? aku betul betul dah tak kuat untuk tahan ni semua insult. each year insults just get deeper, meaner and stronger. and i act as if a i am okay. aku complain pat sesiapa pun apa dorang leh buat? nothing. its not as if dorang ada power untuk buat aku cantik. pathetic sangat bila mak bapak aku akan buat matters lebih worst. i am just so pathetic in life and everything. i cant even solve any problems. kalau edits tak pernah wujud, aku tak akan dapat likes pat fb lah. aku takkan putih lah pat internet. people in the internet would be like, siapa ppm putih ni? checkcheck meet up, ew hitam and ugly yok belah. tu pasal aku tak pernah nak meet up meet up ni semua.