dear diary, i feel hurt cause i dont get that much attention from everyone. especially from someone that meant something to you. haish. i like this guy & i want him to be happy just stay smiling everytime. i'll secretly love you forever till the day i am ready to pour out feelings to you that is maybe idk? next year? you're beautiful like diamonds in the sky. haish. i hate the fact that kept complimenting everyone except for me. & i'm like hello? excuse me i am here. just please look at me. please compliment me. please treat as how u treat others. i want more from u please. i like u. please dont blame me for liking you. i just cant control my feelings. i'll wait for u. even if it takes so much struggles. i'll still wait for u. i am just so in love with your flaws & perfections. i'll be there if u need any help. i'll change u & realise that i was there all this while. i can't sleep. & everytime i breathe, i'll think of u. do u know how sick this is getting? i've never thought u'd be this special to me. i don't ever want u to know that i am into u. like ever. please. u are so perfect to me. please i am begging u. please don't ever flirt with the rest. it hurts actually. especially when u keep telling me good memories of u & her to me. do u know how unlucky i feel? this ain't lust i know, this is love. i just dont know how to react when i am with u. i'll get really mad when i am with u. cause idk. is it possible to hate u & at the same time, falling for u? i dont think everytime my reaction with u is to be angry with & scolding u. but honestly i was i was teasing u. its normal right? please say yes. i love u.