haissssssssssssssssh. how are u people? i am feeling freaking insecure. that word from you makes me feel so asdfghjkl. i feel like crying right now ergh wtf. i wish o was pretty. please. everyone is like so pretty on my timeline twitter. & i look like some extra garbage. evryone's like hating me & here i am too hating myself. dah lah tak nk main habbo ngan aku. maybe dorang irritated by aku? haishhhhhh. am i that annoying? ergh. aku ego eh? aku tak nak jadi forever alone for all my life. i want to be famous & get fame. my friends are like so famous & i am here being a bitch with an attitude management. i have this thing called the anger management. i expect everyone to treat me nicely. just when i'll change? i tried but people just keep reminding me of myself. asal eh everytime aku ada crush on someone, they just don't seem to have feelings back for me. but my friends semua crush dorang suka them balik. not all but mostly.. hahah i saw somthing on twitter right now. & i feel damn fuck hurt. i want to change my name. haish. i feel insecure. my another twin sumpah she is like so opposite of me. just perfect. i feel sad okay when people ask me whats my name then say the other nabilah better. & i'll be like hhaaaha ya ikr! she is so kelakar. why must i terasa in everyone's conversation especially the ones that they gossip about. everyones like so sexy & i am like on black burnt potato. i cant live anymore. i dont feel like living. being hurt resulting me to be much more hot-headed. honestly. there is like too much of thinking in my brain then i'll get pissed off easily. cause u see, i am constantly making myself busy but making the thought of mine get over me. i'll get frustrated at one silly stuff. i hate the fact that i'm always trying to please people. everytime i think i'd made someone mad, i'll follow them everywhere & ask for forgiveness. like its honestly irrtatingly annoying. hurt sial aku. i am not funny & i just cant stop with my vulgars. i tried to be funny but i am just naturally not funny. ergh. should i like take courses to make myself funny? till now, nobody ever sincerely calls me pretty or beautiful. i am so jealous as fuck to those who are so beautiful. i just can't stop staring at them. perfect sia.