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hi. i want someone to ask me if i'm fine, sincerely. haish. and when i'm sad, say 'cheer up' for me and please hug me. i want that. but i've never received that. i want this if i was sad, i want it to be everyone like so worried about me then everyone comes to me and cheer me up. i really want this. but it really never happened. why? idk why hehe fuck it. lol i know why. cause i am ugly and black duh. fuck lah. i hate sia when someone comes and sit beside my friends and just layan my friend and not me. i feel so insecure and invisible. i'll feel like crying hahaaha. dah normal ah ni semua but still not used to it. 

A derp who likes french-kissing her flute and massaging le piano. I kid, I kid. But I am a musician... still a student though. I am addicted to melon milk, coffee, Zooey Deschanel, reading about cryptology and horror and gory manga. I like taking photos every fucking time. Favorite color is brown, the color of earth and chocolates. Books are my best friends. The only time they betrayed me was when I thought an author was female then it turns out to be, aloha, male. Enclosed spaces are cozy; I'm weird like that. And oh, I have a tiny puppy named Sushi who rolls on its back every time I refuse to put down its milk bowl.
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